Rawr. 5/16/09

I haven't blogged in a long time.. but it's okay, cause it's not like a lot of people read it or whatever. :P

So, I guess, it's been a month or so since the last time I came back on here.
I guess it's been pretty busy, homework and all, because I'm not work-oriented.

I miss dissecting pigs. I miss not doing anything in class except probing through a pig's insides and identifying everything. Blehh.

I had an eye test. I'm like.. super blind in my left eye. Oh, and they put like.. these numbing drops in my eyes. They were dilated for quite sometime. It kinda scared me. Not only was it supposed to dilate for 4-8 hours, but RIGHT AFTER that, I had to go to the park to work on a project. In the afternoon-night. And I did not bring sunglasses. They hurt like crazy, but whatever. I really cannot wait until I get my glasses.

On a sad note, I am officially a horrible friend.
I mean, seriously, what kind of friend tries to distract you from your problems by making some stupid comments on what they saw last night or gossip about the random person that passes back?
I have been SO USELESS in helping my friends cope, it's just.. wow. It kind of makes me realize how heartless I am. I seriously cannot say the right words to make someone feel better. I sound like a broken record whenever I try to help the person. I always try to weasel out of it by distracting them. Why can't I talk about it?
It's horrible.
And I don't feel like talking about this anymore.. :[
Maybe I should try hanging out with emotionless people for a while...

Oh, dear. I realize that if you're is reading this, you're probably feeling sad right now.
So let's switch to a happy note.

Band Banquet was really nice.. it made me reminisce about marching season. I miss it a lot. I miss the late night cramming because of the practices and the competitions. I miss the obligation to come back to school and spend the whole day with my friends. I miss the feeling of achieving the same goal with like.. 200 other people. I miss the booster food and the wandering around and running into other bands. I miss the crazy bus rides on the way to competitions and the hangover-like bus rides home. I miss arriving home late and just falling dead asleep on the band room floor with everyone else. I might even miss the door. A lot of memories were made behind the door, and a lot of bonds were formed with people I have never thought of I'd ever talk to.
Even though everyone may have hated us, I really don't care. They didn't understand what it meant to be a door. They didn't understand how much extra crap we had to do, just to make it look decent.
Anyways.. I'm actually pretty excited for band season. It's like an oasis after a long drought of idleness. I don't know. That's a really lame analogy or whatever. How horrible.
Thinking back, it would've been really neat to document the life of a door. Ahaha, like "Memoirs of an Ayala Door". Okay, I'm done with reminiscing.
So back to band banquet. Ahaha, I always go off on a tangent.
BAND BANQUET. Okay, maybe that will help me focus.
I LOL'ed at Sandra winning the gag awards. Congratulations~
The awards went on pretty long.. I liked the Gag Award Video thingie they made.
The food was yummy. A chocolate fountain was a good idea.
My feet hurt from dancing. I need to learn more dance moves.
SoundGarden sounds okay.. I wonder how everyone finds out about it before it's announced at Banquet...
Got my letter thingie.. it's fuzzy. ahaha.
Haha, Pocky. [Inside table jokes] He was looking mighty fine last night. I really wished I had the guts to ask him to dance. I think he left early. :(
Ahaha, since I'm not accustomed to flashing lights, the first 10 minutes of dancing felt like I was having epilepsy.
I think I wasn't really myself last night..
NO, no alcohol. Just adrenaline. Ahahaha.
That's about it...

I should make a to-do list for band season this fall.
1. Really get to know everyone (or most people) in band.
2. Cherish moments with favorite seniors (next year). Senior pullout, I realized, was not as emotional for me as it was for everyone else. I guess I really cried when Andy and Gloria came by...
3. Make friends with underclassmen so my senior pullout will be more or less remembered.
4. Don't be too shy to participate in the unity games...
5. Be crazy. It makes everything a little more fun.
6. Buy Sandra a band mom pin
7. Make friends with people from other bands. Particularly, Mission Viejo and Upland. Haaaah.
8. Pratice scales. x_x or just learn a new instrument. =_=
9. Partyboy video
10. Be wise about shift times...

Soo, that's about it for now.
Blahhhhhhhh.

I wish my friends were a bit happier.